I know. [She understands, she really does! If she found out about something she'd done in the future, she'd want to know why, want to find an explanation for it. Jester didn't paint a very clear picture when she told him.

And she understands, too, about him wanting to protect her from doing things she didn't want to do. He's protective, always has been, and it's something she really admires about Fjord.]

Your intentions were so good, [she reassures him, laying a hand softly across one green forearm.] I know that. You said I didn't have to do anything, that you'd get me anything I needed, and my immediate reaction was that...well, in that case, I only have to do things if I want to, and it's not totally dire if I have a square that I totally don't want to do. I can just skip it, because my friends are here to look out for me and keep me fed and stuff.

[Her chest rises and falls quickly, getting to the part that she's been dreading the most.]

And then because you told me you were so super happy here with your four lovers, I did something really fucking stupid. I'd been talking to him a bit earlier in the day, and he was really charming and stuff, so I asked Vax for advice about a square I wasn't sure about.

[Jester's hand slides away from Fjord's forearm, and she bends forward to cradle her face in her hands, too much of a coward to look at Fjord's expression right now. She feels so, so, so small.]

And he offered to help me fill it, so we did. It was wrong of me, I know it was! And I'm really sorry that I went off and did that, Fjord.