I know, you did. I know. I just wasn't...thinking very clearly. I was upset, and he offered, and I just thought...
[This is torture, this is agony, worse than her tattoo, worse that watching Sehanine drag the Traveler up into the sky, worse than watching her friends die or nearly die, because all of that is in the past but this is now. She's feeling so much it burns up inside her. She pictures herself Disintegrating into ash and dust, floating away across the sea. But that's not reality.
She uncurls from herself, straightening up but not looking at Fjord, not just yet.]
I thought it would make me feel like I had any kind of control over anything.
[It's true, she realizes as she's saying it. Tossed onto this island, marching toward what's sure to be a losing fight to save the world back home, amid a whole lot of emotional turmoil on top of losing out on someone she'd been clinging to for dear life...it's been a lot. A lot.]
It doesn't make it right. And I should have thought about it for more than ten seconds. And y-you shouldn't blame Vax because I didn't tell him and I'm guessing you didn't either, so he had no idea.
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[This is torture, this is agony, worse than her tattoo, worse that watching Sehanine drag the Traveler up into the sky, worse than watching her friends die or nearly die, because all of that is in the past but this is now. She's feeling so much it burns up inside her. She pictures herself Disintegrating into ash and dust, floating away across the sea. But that's not reality.
She uncurls from herself, straightening up but not looking at Fjord, not just yet.]
I thought it would make me feel like I had any kind of control over anything.
[It's true, she realizes as she's saying it. Tossed onto this island, marching toward what's sure to be a losing fight to save the world back home, amid a whole lot of emotional turmoil on top of losing out on someone she'd been clinging to for dear life...it's been a lot. A lot.]
It doesn't make it right. And I should have thought about it for more than ten seconds. And y-you shouldn't blame Vax because I didn't tell him and I'm guessing you didn't either, so he had no idea.