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𝐣𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐞 ([personal profile] leetle) wrote2021-05-16 09:40 pm
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Hey! It's Jester!
I can't pick up right now, but I'll reply really soon, okay? Don't miss me too much.
...doot doo doo beep boop!






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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
... I said something to him a couple of days ago, it wasn't much. I — I wasn't feeling good, so we took a nap together.

[ Now he's confused beyond figuring out why Vax didn't push for why Fjord felt shitty over Jester's presence being in the City, it would have made sense to. Wouldn't it? Only Vax was distracted by whatever Fjord had done to him when they mated and ... they just fell asleep.

There's no anger. It's as if his chest has filled with water and he's finished drowning with nowhere to go, unsure what to do with himself; this was exactly the sort of empty gutting feeling he feared when Vax held him close and soothed his anxieties. Between disliking the thought of anyone sleeping with Jester (which he knows is horribly possessive but can't shake) and the revelation of it as one of his mates, Fjord turns around to walk back to the driftwood log where he sits back down, head bowed and arms on his knees as he stares at the sand and wills himself the strength not to let the island hurt him.

He looks tired and, like he told Molly (instead of compromising every corner of his heart over and over) he very much wants to go home. ]
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
What? [ Even through the sad haze settled over him, he looks across in her direction. Not speak to her ever again? ] Why would I do that?

[ She's one of his best friends, like he told her.

He shakes his head and leans forward, a hand covering his eyes. While he tries to digest the newest twist in his rapidly messed up relationships, it also becomes paramount after hearing her talk like that to try and be fair, too. Somehow. ]


I know him. I trust him, so ... I'm glad it was someone like Vax that [ a fraction of a pause, ] took care of you the way you wanted.

[ Even if it wasn't me. ]
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Vax isn't a bad guy. Don't ... don't wish to take all of it back because of me, he doesn't deserve that.

[ First time. He'll feel that hit home later, for now he's just numb and miserable. ]

I'll admit, I wanted it to be me too. [ What's the point in lying? ] When I first arrived here, I didn't want anyone. I thought it would make me worth less, make me more of whatever I was after Avantika, surviving like this. I told myself, Jester would want you to get home any way you can, she won't care about what you did.

I never got home.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
You said we were together back home.

[ He looks up at her where she stands in front of him in the sand, still slouched where he sits as he drops his hand. ]

You knew I liked you when you came here, Jessie.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't change my mind about wanting people, that's kind of the problem.

[ He pats the driftwood beside him so she doesn't have to stand there like she's on trial for living her own life. What Molly said about not treating her like she's from a book, the same way she did once with the Oskar stuff, still resonates through Fjord. ]

I only told you about all of them because you never seemed that bothered when I did, you were this supportive cheer squad and I ... I should have seen past that. I was just so nervous about telling you, I didn't.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Even if I hadn't known I had said something, you did. You had the right to mess, Jes.

[ Wanting to take her hand, he forces his to remain where they drape between his knees. Ahead of them the ocean is beautiful, murky on an overcast day but still peaceful. Silent as he thinks of how to word himself, Fjord goes with honesty. ]

When Molly and I started fooling around, that was all it was. Then it changed, and we promised we would be faithful to each other as much as the City allows. We made sure to share the same bed every night, no matter who we were with during the day. It was ... important to me. Molly's the reason I haven't broken down yet.

[ Yet. He walks a thinner wire every day. ]

I know you don't want to hear about the others but he's a big part of my life now.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you, Jester. Even if everyone broke up on the spot, I'd like to think we would all still be friends at the end of our time on this godsforsaken island.

[ Picking up on the way her hands are restless, he finally places one of his over hers. ]

Can we ... start this over? Because apparently I bared my soul to you in the future but I'm from my own past and it's giving me anxiety not knowing what's happened. What I did, or why.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-26 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ Slumped against each other as a light drizzle skirts across the beach, it's a lot to take in. ]

No wonder you've been stressed, beyond all the dumb romance stuff.

[ He really hopes the families are okay, cheek resting on Jester's blue hair as he runs through it all. ]

The world won't end. [ Fjord has plans to return to the Menagerie Coast after all the bullshit with the Somnovem and Ickithon is finished. No one is taking away a well-deserved holiday like that. ] Jes, if you want to see more people in this City because it's your choice and not the Augur's, like you said, then ... I want you to do that. I want you to feel like you can talk to me too.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-26 12:14 am (UTC)(link)
... You'll always be a friend, but never just a friend. Does that make sense?

[ That was what he wrestled so hard with when he got mad at Molly for shoving a reminder of Jester in his face when they were being intimate, it made Fjord feel horrid. Multiple partners who are aware of each other is one thing, and he's slowly getting used to the idea of having the ability to bond with certain people in a crazy halforc way while having one real mate, but while she was absent there was no reconciling why those conflicting feelings were rising up.

She's here now, though. And she's being amazing, all things considered. Quieter, even though it's just them on the beach, he confesses, ]


I think you're so beautiful, [ clarifying a beat later, ] stubby horns or not.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-26 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ This feels right, closer to how they usually are. ]

Oh, well. I'm not all that rugged anymore ... Did you know they fried food here?

[ Haha, fuck. He laughs under his breath, nudging her side. ]
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-26 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
I heard about that. [ Thank the gods for Caleb Widogast. ] Between you and me, the arcade is way better. I'll show you the motorbikes game.

But not tomorrow, because I'm suddenly hit with the inexplicable inspiration to work out.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-26 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
Unfortunately I do, otherwise someone else will have to get strong enough to pick up the Star Razor and I don't see Yasha anywhere.

[ He slips his hand into hers, giving a tug. ]

You know, I'm suddenly fucking famished. Let's go get something to eat? Dick around the house, see what everyone's up to? [ That's what he yearns for, the warmth of a home and good company, people he loves. And comfort food. It feels like he can enjoy those things, now. ] He won't admit it, but Essek really likes being bothered when he's busy.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-26 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
Then I guess it defaults to be yours.

[ His hand remains in hers as he starts up the beach, pretending to drag her along but just enjoying the simple touch for what it is. New to him, anyway. ]

I wish you had, that thing is ninety-percent sugar. We'll be bouncing off the walls with our rotten teeth by evening ...

[ All the way home, the tone is set. ]