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𝐣𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐞 ([personal profile] leetle) wrote2021-05-16 09:40 pm
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Hey! It's Jester!
I can't pick up right now, but I'll reply really soon, okay? Don't miss me too much.
...doot doo doo beep boop!






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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 08:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Feeling his cheeks darken in hue, he clears his throat at the mad for me comment. He was definitely interested and invested, the phrasing is a little odd, as if he had nothing to fear from baring the raw components of his heart.

His face softens from a mild frown as she admits she was hurt and he wants to kick himself. ]


I was reacting too when I said that, I couldn't figure out why I would wait until before you were badly injured and panicking ... made sense. I suppose that was the push I needed? I'm sorry, I don't know; I can't explain something I haven't done. [ Sighing, he rubs the back of his head. ] I wasn't worried about anyone else getting trapped in this dimension, not really. I wanted them all here ...

But every time I thought about the Augur giving you that A5 list, it made me want to escape all the faster. I've done things I didn't want to so I can get my powers and abilities back, make a safe house and have extra squares to get back other people's things, all so I can protect us. Protect you, Jester, from bartering away pieces of yourself the same way. That was how it felt to me.

So I was ... surprised, when you said you had found someone else so fast.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He's following along and nodding, agreeing, until she mentions doing something stupid. When she says he Fjord's attention narrows (he always suspected it would be another guy, out of his own insecurities more than anything, and to have that confirmed making him feel exactly as bad as it does) but it's when she mentions a name that it feels like something in his head short-circuits and he must have misheard.

As Jester covers her face and agonises over her mistake, Fjord is still trying to figure out if he heard her correctly. When she doesn't correct herself he's still swimming in a fog of confusion, because Vax is his. He said so. Kind of. He knows that he named him as one of the four people he had started a relationship with.

It's also like smashing dolls together in his head, he can't imagine it. ]


Vax ... Vax'ildan?
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 09:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Silent as he blinks, looking at her as if all the pieces of the conversation they were having just turned into an entirely different jigsaw, he tilts his head. ]

I told you that I was with Vax.

[ It's like trying to ride a dragon, getting onboard with why Jester would sleep with someone he specified as having feelings for makes no sense. Fjord rubs his face to stay level-headed, as much as he can with his heart suddenly a lead weight in his chest. ]

Why did you do it?
Edited 2021-05-25 21:08 (UTC)
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
... I said something to him a couple of days ago, it wasn't much. I — I wasn't feeling good, so we took a nap together.

[ Now he's confused beyond figuring out why Vax didn't push for why Fjord felt shitty over Jester's presence being in the City, it would have made sense to. Wouldn't it? Only Vax was distracted by whatever Fjord had done to him when they mated and ... they just fell asleep.

There's no anger. It's as if his chest has filled with water and he's finished drowning with nowhere to go, unsure what to do with himself; this was exactly the sort of empty gutting feeling he feared when Vax held him close and soothed his anxieties. Between disliking the thought of anyone sleeping with Jester (which he knows is horribly possessive but can't shake) and the revelation of it as one of his mates, Fjord turns around to walk back to the driftwood log where he sits back down, head bowed and arms on his knees as he stares at the sand and wills himself the strength not to let the island hurt him.

He looks tired and, like he told Molly (instead of compromising every corner of his heart over and over) he very much wants to go home. ]
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
What? [ Even through the sad haze settled over him, he looks across in her direction. Not speak to her ever again? ] Why would I do that?

[ She's one of his best friends, like he told her.

He shakes his head and leans forward, a hand covering his eyes. While he tries to digest the newest twist in his rapidly messed up relationships, it also becomes paramount after hearing her talk like that to try and be fair, too. Somehow. ]


I know him. I trust him, so ... I'm glad it was someone like Vax that [ a fraction of a pause, ] took care of you the way you wanted.

[ Even if it wasn't me. ]
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Vax isn't a bad guy. Don't ... don't wish to take all of it back because of me, he doesn't deserve that.

[ First time. He'll feel that hit home later, for now he's just numb and miserable. ]

I'll admit, I wanted it to be me too. [ What's the point in lying? ] When I first arrived here, I didn't want anyone. I thought it would make me worth less, make me more of whatever I was after Avantika, surviving like this. I told myself, Jester would want you to get home any way you can, she won't care about what you did.

I never got home.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
You said we were together back home.

[ He looks up at her where she stands in front of him in the sand, still slouched where he sits as he drops his hand. ]

You knew I liked you when you came here, Jessie.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't change my mind about wanting people, that's kind of the problem.

[ He pats the driftwood beside him so she doesn't have to stand there like she's on trial for living her own life. What Molly said about not treating her like she's from a book, the same way she did once with the Oskar stuff, still resonates through Fjord. ]

I only told you about all of them because you never seemed that bothered when I did, you were this supportive cheer squad and I ... I should have seen past that. I was just so nervous about telling you, I didn't.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Even if I hadn't known I had said something, you did. You had the right to mess, Jes.

[ Wanting to take her hand, he forces his to remain where they drape between his knees. Ahead of them the ocean is beautiful, murky on an overcast day but still peaceful. Silent as he thinks of how to word himself, Fjord goes with honesty. ]

When Molly and I started fooling around, that was all it was. Then it changed, and we promised we would be faithful to each other as much as the City allows. We made sure to share the same bed every night, no matter who we were with during the day. It was ... important to me. Molly's the reason I haven't broken down yet.

[ Yet. He walks a thinner wire every day. ]

I know you don't want to hear about the others but he's a big part of my life now.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-25 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you, Jester. Even if everyone broke up on the spot, I'd like to think we would all still be friends at the end of our time on this godsforsaken island.

[ Picking up on the way her hands are restless, he finally places one of his over hers. ]

Can we ... start this over? Because apparently I bared my soul to you in the future but I'm from my own past and it's giving me anxiety not knowing what's happened. What I did, or why.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-26 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ Slumped against each other as a light drizzle skirts across the beach, it's a lot to take in. ]

No wonder you've been stressed, beyond all the dumb romance stuff.

[ He really hopes the families are okay, cheek resting on Jester's blue hair as he runs through it all. ]

The world won't end. [ Fjord has plans to return to the Menagerie Coast after all the bullshit with the Somnovem and Ickithon is finished. No one is taking away a well-deserved holiday like that. ] Jes, if you want to see more people in this City because it's your choice and not the Augur's, like you said, then ... I want you to do that. I want you to feel like you can talk to me too.
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[personal profile] halforc 2021-05-26 12:14 am (UTC)(link)
... You'll always be a friend, but never just a friend. Does that make sense?

[ That was what he wrestled so hard with when he got mad at Molly for shoving a reminder of Jester in his face when they were being intimate, it made Fjord feel horrid. Multiple partners who are aware of each other is one thing, and he's slowly getting used to the idea of having the ability to bond with certain people in a crazy halforc way while having one real mate, but while she was absent there was no reconciling why those conflicting feelings were rising up.

She's here now, though. And she's being amazing, all things considered. Quieter, even though it's just them on the beach, he confesses, ]


I think you're so beautiful, [ clarifying a beat later, ] stubby horns or not.

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