["okay"? What kind of answer is that! Jester fumes a little, warring with herself, and then decides that she's just...over this whole stupid noble thing she's decided to do.]
i'm just really confused right now because under normal circumstances you're like REALLY smart maybe i should just stop beating around the bush about this huh
uggggh no it has nothing to do with them and everything to do with [it takes her a full minute to work up the nerve—] you you're the person i actually like
[ There's a pause of a minute or so between messages as he sits up in bed, blinking at her message. She means in that way, she must if that's what she's annoyed he hasn't realised, and it's confusing on a lot of levels. She's been entirely herself, just as confident as Fjord remembers, so he didn't feel possessive or any huge degree of jealousy when she branched out (a little) just ... convinced her old crush was well and truly over. She's been so happy for him and he's told her so much.
... Oh gods, so much. ]
but you hooked up with that person the first week you arrrived
[In the interim between sending her message and receiving his, Jester takes a moment to take a deep breath and then scream into her pillow. When she gets Fjord's message, she's immediately typing back despite how trembly she is all of a sudden.]
because i was sad because i thought that you suddenly didn't want me anymore you know i come from a later time than you i just...didn't want to mention how things were for us because you seemed so happy and who was i to barge in here and demand things be exactly the same way for us!!!!!!
[No, Jester erases that, and this time sends a voice message, because it's a thousand times easier to just ramble aloud like she's Sending than it is to try and type a coherent sentence.]
I mean that...the night after the statue thing that made me look older, you. You came up to my room and asked to kiss me. And I said yes, and that ever since then we've been, like, you know. A thing.
[she pauses, catching her breath and trying to steady her voice.]
And I just didn't want to come in here and ruin all this good stuff you have going.
[ When he hears her message he brings over a pillow and yells into it, head in his hands as he replays what she says. He told Caleb he was growing anxious about missing out on his chance with Jester back home, told him how in hindsight that seemed a shitty reason to get with someone (which Caleb didn't disagree with), and apparently because Fjord is an idiot he did it anyway and now Jester has been bouncing around the island as his Exandrian girlfriend while Molly and everyone else has been chattering about getting fucked sideways by him.
Gods. Why is this his life!!
One thing in her story catches his attention in a way that leaves a lump in his stomach, still too anxious to trust his voice in a reply back. ]
AFTER the statue made you older?
[ Yeah, that would ... spur his freaked-out ass on. ]
[She switches back to text, now, because it feels...safer. A little less vulnerable. More controlled. There's a massive lump in her throat, and she can't decide if she wants to cry or punch something or throw up.]
yeah i thought maybe...i don't know like maybe i was suddenly good looking and that was why?? i'm so confused, fjord
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kind of like when i'm sketching or something at the end of the day
just not TOO far away from everyone, you know?
YESSSSS
you're the best
<3
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i know ;)
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what if being The Best ... is my DESTINY???
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you're so annoying
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the best is probably that person you said you like, right?
how are things going with them?
(i'm allowed to ask as The Former Best)
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[hmm HMM this sure got away from her fast!!]
fjord, you're still the best
that person is really cool and nice but i don't think it's like...a thing or anything
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in the cafe you said they were super cool and good-looking or something
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that doesn't mean i'm dating them or anything
why, are you totally jealous???
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B:
because they suck!
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in that way
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don't worry, fjord. the person i do like makes me feel really really safe.
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oh my gods fjord are you serious
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maybe i should just stop beating around the bush about this huh
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has something happened with that person? you can tell me
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you're the person i actually like
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... Oh gods, so much. ]
but you hooked up with that person the first week you arrrived
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because i was sad
because i thought that you suddenly didn't want me anymore
you know i come from a later time than you
i just...didn't want to mention how things were for us because you seemed so happy
and who was i to barge in here and demand things be exactly the same way for us!!!!!!
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what do you mean, "the way things are for us?
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[No, Jester erases that, and this time sends a voice message, because it's a thousand times easier to just ramble aloud like she's Sending than it is to try and type a coherent sentence.]
I mean that...the night after the statue thing that made me look older, you. You came up to my room and asked to kiss me. And I said yes, and that ever since then we've been, like, you know. A thing.
[she pauses, catching her breath and trying to steady her voice.]
And I just didn't want to come in here and ruin all this good stuff you have going.
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Gods. Why is this his life!!
One thing in her story catches his attention in a way that leaves a lump in his stomach, still too anxious to trust his voice in a reply back. ]
AFTER the statue made you older?
[ Yeah, that would ... spur his freaked-out ass on. ]
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yeah
i thought maybe...i don't know like maybe i was suddenly good looking and that was why??
i'm so confused, fjord
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